Wednesday, April 15, 2009

My New Life

Sara popped in to ask how things are going and if I've signed back up for Weight Watchers yet. On the first question...I'm doing ok. I'm slowly adjusting to my new life as a mom. It's very different. There have been moments when I've wanted my old life back but they are fleeting and usually between midnight and 4am when I'm exhausted and fantasizing about sleep. I sometimes wonder how in the heck I'm supposed to squeeze exercise into this, especially when I go back to work, but then I stop because I know I'm getting ahead of myself. One thing at a time Michelle.

Here's a picture of me the other day after I took a leisurely walk around the neighborhood with Marek in a sling (the Moby wrap I think it's called).

And a super-sweet picture of Marek and Miguel resting on the couch.

A quick baby update. Things are going really well on the whole. I can't really complain, Marek is a sweetheart. We went to see a lactation consultant. This was our second visit with her. Marek is gaining weight just as he should, one ounce per day. He weighs 9 pounds already! So that means breastfeeding is going well. Miguel has been a dream. Couldn't do this without him. And on a super-exciting note, Kristy is coming to town and I get to see her tomorrow! She's going to just love Marek :) Kristy isn't keeping up her blog but she's still doing fabulous, hiking all over Hawaii and having a ball. Now it's her turn to inspire me!

Alright, back to Sara's question. I haven't gone back to Weight Watchers but I think I'm going this Friday. In a funny turn of events I connected with a woman who is also a new mom who I used to go to the same meeting as me. She goes to the Friday morning meeting (if 10:30am counts as morning, which it does for me) so I'm going to join her. This is a larger meeting but the smaller ones are even earlier so that won't work. We'll see how I like it. I think I'm going to sign up for the monthly plan again so I can use the online tracker. I really enjoyed that tool last time.

So I'm down to around 176. At least I was the last time I weighed myself. That was a first-thing-in-the-morning-barely-any-clothes weight on my home scale. I'm expecting to be probably 5 pounds more on the WW scale with clothes and breakfast in my tummy. My scale might be more generous too. Plus I've been eating too much lately so I might even have gained. Wow, I guess I'm really preparing myself to be heavier.

I'm wearing some of my old clothes. Mostly the ones either with elastic waists or ones that I'd shrunk out of but still have, like the size 14's.

I need to get back to meetings, if nothing else but to remind me of my goals. Today was a kind of very bleak day food-wise. I had a morning errand and afterward started thinking about fast food. These things don't always end well. By the time I got home I had a KFC lunch with me (a 3 piece dark meat extra crispy meal with all the fixings, probably one of the highest calorie meals they sell!). So I ate that and a little while later ate the last piece of angel food cake I had with strawberries and whipped cream. As if on some kind of sugar bender I started thinking about the Easter chocolate. Ate a bunch of that. Man, I felt like crap when all was said and done. Even more so because I'm breastfeeding and realize that this is NO WAY to be fueling the body that fuels my baby. So guilt ensues, which isn't good for anyone. I am going to that meeting Friday.

As I said before I'm not committing to more than that at this point. I'll start with meetings and see what naturally develops from there. I'm big on not over-committing myself. I've learned that if I sign up for too much right off the bat, and then don't succeed on all fronts, I risk throwing in the towel altogether. If I add goals one by one, when I feel ready to take the next step, well, things just seem to go so much better. I say this partially to remind myself. It's so tempting to want to go full bore and start saying things like, "If I lose 2 pounds per week for the next 10 weeks I'll be back to my low weight come July." Yeah, that kind of thinking is dangerous for me.

Deadlines are part of the diet mentality. For me they suggest temporary changes. My mantra remains that it's all about maintenance. It's not about losing weight, it's about staying healthy. In the short-term, in the long-term. It's about changes that become habits. Habits that become a way of life. Being a mom is new and will bring a new set of challenges to my fitness/health goals but I know I can merge the two. I'm not sure what it will look like yet but I know this...I'm going to love my new life. Because if I don't I'll make changes until I do.


  1. Hey Michelle,

    Your boy is gorgeous.

    I LOVE your attitude. It has to be about sustainable, lifetime changes. This is my mantra too.

    I look forward to hearing about the way achieving a healthy weight and motherhood go together for you because I haven't quite worked it out yet, but I have worked out that I am happy and healthy...and thats the main is bringing up a happy healthy bub!

    GIve Kristy a big hello. I miss her blog!

    Take care of you and yours!
    Good luck at the meeting.

  2. It's good to be reading you again. You have such a smart and sane attitude about healthy eating and healthy living.

    Your kidlet is adorable and that M&M picture is lovely. :)

  3. Marek is BEE-U-TI-FUL... Is there nothing sexier than a man taking a nap with a baby? They're both gorgeous...that one's a framer.

    I also love your attitude and how you know your limits and your weaknesses. Keeping goals short term and reasonable is what's going to lead to your success...but you already know that (but it never gets old hearing it, does it?)

    Glad you're posting...and back to the old blog name. You are a momma now, aren't you?

  4. Your baby is adorable, and you sound like you're doing great. I'm sure all the weight loss and eating-right will get better over time.

  5. You always have the best photos. :) You look amazing!

    I was always amazed by the fact that everything you eat your baby eats, too. It's great to hear Marek is doing well and getting big.

    It sounds like you're on the right track with everything. It's just a matter of adjusting to the new rhythm of life. I'm still fantasizing about sleep... LOL.

    It's good to see you posting.

  6. Your baby is absolutely adorable. You look radiant!!!!

    I like your attitude of facing this one step at a time!

  7. great photos! I was thinking how great you looked in your photo, and then was happy to read that your weight was dropping back down already. im sure things will take adjusting to, but you have the right attitude. its not about losing X amount of pounds just to be a certain weight or size. just focus on being healthy and healthy for that cutie of yours!

  8. All 3 of you look so amazing! Marek is gorgeous!!

    I think using WW just for focus and tracking and nothing else is a great idea!! You seem to be losing weight all on your own anyways! I love your attitude and mantra!!

  9. Hi Michelle, Congratulations on the birth of Marek, you look fantastic I think! I'm sure with your awareness of what you're eating and why (eg more tired and hungry, more susceptible to temptation etc) your body will just naturally start to return to it's healthiest self, plus I'm sure breastfeeding helps. How do you find the Moby wrap? It looks so comfortable, is it easy to wear? Just looking ahead to my own "bub carrying" days :) Best wishes for the 3 of you, Sian

  10. Congratulations, Michelle!! I have been thinking about you, but I was too lazy to link to you from my site and was hoping you'd comment again so I could see how you were. Congratulations on your gorgeous baby boy. ;) He'll be cheering you on on the sidelines before you know it!

  11. I LOVE love love the last thing you said here. "I'm going to love my new life. Because if I don't I'll make changes until I do." It's a concept that has always seemed (scary but) self-evident to me. There are people in my life who let the fear of it keep them from taking action to make their lives... THEIR lives. I've been thinking about that a lot lately and not sure how I can help, but in the meantime I need to make sure I'm making changes that make MY life work for ME and hope we all end up in the same place, healthier and happier, together.


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