Monday, June 29, 2009

Holding on Tight

You know how when you first get back on the wagon things are sorta shaky for a while? It's like you have to hold on tight or you might easily fall back off. That's where I am. In fact, reading back over my recent history I've gotten on and fallen off a few times in the past couple of months. So I'm back on! And I'm holding on tight. I went to the gym Wed, Thur, Fri and Sat of last week. Wow, four times!

I also made it to a meeting on Friday (again, thanks Katrina!), which was good. The weight did go up, as expected. I am now 184.4 pounds. That's a gain of 2.8 pounds from my last meeting on 5/29. It is also 6 pounds over my post-pregnancy weight of 178.4 pounds. Even worse, I am 41% body fat. Yikes! In fact, looking over my weigh-ins since returning to WW I've only had one week in which I had a loss, all the others were gains (or one where I stayed the same). I will work hard and maybe I'll have a loss this week.

I also spent a lot of time out of the house this weekend, which is always good for my soul (and my momentum). On Saturday Miguel, Marek and I spent the afternoon at Stinson Beach. There's a bit of a heat wave going on here so the beach was crowded, which was fun. We played catch and people watched and whiled away the afternoon.

Marek and I on the beach.

On Sunday Miguel had a soccer game so Marek and I joined some friends at the Bolinas Jetty beach. He relaxed while I played in the waves, played catch and batted around a badminton birdie. It was a great afternoon and I felt pretty good driving home with warm skin covered with a thin layer of salt. Marek was a dream and only complained the last 15 minutes or so of the car ride home.

Today, Monday, I was sitting around contemplating whether or not to go to the gym when I pulled one of those, "stop thinking about it and get up and go!" moves on myself. Fortunately it worked. I got there just in time to squeeze out my whole workout before the childcare closed. As far as my routine, I'm doin 15 minutes on the elliptical and 15 minutes of jog/walk (3.5mph walking with 3 two-minute jogs at 5mph). Those two-minute jogs are tough! Especially that last one, I have to do some mental maneuvering to keep myself going. I'm thinking about doing Couch-to-5k again. At least this time I know I'll be able to do the brisk 5-minute warmup walk! Heck, I could even start on Week 2.

As I mentioned before the size 14's I purchased recently are tight. This has to change in the next two weeks. I start back to work mid-July and I need to be able to wear those pants by then without looking like I'm stuffed in them. Does that sound possible? I sure hope so.

Well, that's it for me. I don't want to wrap up before saying a huge Thank You!! to all those who commented on my last entry. There have been a number of times when the comments on this blog have gone a long way in keeping me going, in reminding me of what I'm doing, what I can do, what I've already done, and where I can go and how to get there. I was very touched and inspired by them and it really helps, so thank you again.

I am so grateful I'm feeling the desire to respond individually so here goes...

Cyndi - thank you for telling me I inspired you. That is so inspiring to me now.
Alice - yes, I need to be easier on myself, 'cause you're right, having a baby throws the body for a loop. Also, I see a therapist, she's actually the her in the conversation I related in my last post :)
Cherelli - You're so right! I need to focus on those fun, active things that I love to do. I was actually just saying today that my biggest motivator for staying fit is so that I can get out there and have fun, live life, climb a mountain. And now I'm motivated to stay fit so I can do all these things with my son.
Amy - Yes, I want to. Thank you for reminding me of that. I've blogged before about the mental trap of thinking that I'm being forced by some outside entity to workout when it's me that wants it. And congratulations to you for getting back on the wagon! You're right, I'll be kicking myself down the road if I let this go farther.
Ruthie - I can't imagine doing this three times! Hats off to you. Your starting over video brought tears to my eyes.
Flo - Thank you for always encouraging me to stick with it :)
Irene - I hope you know what an inspiration you are to me. It does feel like my life depends on it, you're right.
Barbie2b - Please don't eat my baby! :) Thank you for the encouragement.
Bekkles - Thank you for empathizing with me. Sometimes it's so nice to just be heard. I know you know my struggle and I am motivated seeing you succeed.
Amybee - Baby steps, so timely :) Thank you for reminding me to focus on something small and achieve that goal. I sometimes get too overwhelmed with what I need to do.
Kathy - Thank you for commiserating with me and reminding me that I'm not alone. This weight/fitness is a lifelong battle for so many of us, but there's strength in numbers!
Heather - I appreciate you pointing out that what I did before might need to be tweaked considering my new life with a baby. It got me to thinking about ways I might be able to sneak in some fun exercise. Like tennis, I want to play tennis.
Now, how to do that with a baby??
Ironayla - It helps me so much to know this blog isn't just about me being all narcissistic. I'm also thinking about taking new before pictures so I can mentally stop focusing on where I was and focus on where I am now.
Kelly - I want to sign up for something but I'm scared. I guess my confidence is low and I'm not sure I could get ready in time. I might just do it though, it's great advice.
Colette - All my whining and you put it into perspective. Yes, it is worth it. To have my little baby, well, 30 pounds is a small price to pay. Thank you.
MaryFran - The gym was great! I so love it once I get there. Why is this hard? It's not like we get there and hate it. Isn't that weird?
Kelly - Thank you for passing on Jillian's wise words of wisdom. The new me...that's a concept I need to work harder on. I am not the old me anymore.

And to Tessa, Tara, and Mom for the sweet emails - thank you!!

And now I'm off to enjoy Taco Soup that has been cooking away for hours in my new slow cooker. If you have any tried and true healthy slow cooker recipes I'd be eternally grateful if you email them to me.


  1. Well, that's the last time I don't comment on a blog entry! if I'd known you were gonna name names...

    Just want to remind you, Michelle, that technically you're not completely starting over. That would be you with 50 more pounds.

    Glad to hear what a fun beachy weekend you had and that you're back at the gym. Do it all till you can't do otherwise. And of course you can lose a few measly pounds in a few weeks.

    Wish I could be there. Love you guys.

  2. You GO Michelle! ;-) Thanks for the props....

  3. Taco soup? Recipe please!

  4. Great post, Michelle. I like the new found change in your thinking. After all, things have changed. You did have a baby. :)

    It's totally possible that those new pants will fit much better by the time you go back to work. Even just a few pounds lost will help.

    I thought about you last weekend. There was a Tri here, near by. :)

  5. I just sent you 2 of my favorite slow cooker recipes. Hope you enjoy!

  6. great job on getting to the gym- that is a great start and the beginning of something that will feel natural and become a habit again.

  7. Good job Michelle!! You have won half the battle already! Mentally "getting there" is definately half the battle.... and for the other half...just give it time. You will do this.
    Thanks for inspiring me!! :)


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