So if I take a look at my "reasons to be in shape" I should throw out the negative/scary ones and keep the positive ones.
I want to be in shape...
So I can go on all sorts of adventures, from hiking and biking to spelunking and snorkeling.
So I can create a fun, adventurous childhood for my son.
So I can wear the clothes I want to wear - shorts in the summer, a fitted button down shirt to work, skirts, shorts, whatever.
So I can apply my energy toward things I enjoy, like how to organize a 3 day weekend camping trip on short notice.
So I can look at pictures of myself and see the big smile on my face in addition to all the other things in the picture.
This is really resonating with me for a bunch of reasons. First, who feels good thinking about negative things? Thinking about something that scares me, or makes me feel like crap, brings me down. It does not inspire me. Thinking about feeling good, looking good, having fun - that inspires me.
Also, the mind doesn't always retain the finer points of a thought. If I spend a lot of time looking at fat pictures and telling myself I have to avoid that, my mind just holds on to that image, and doesn't necessarily remember the part about avoiding that. It just further cements the "fat" self image.
An image which is still alive and well in my brain by the way. I see pictures of myself even now and am startled that I do not look bigger. I feel fatter than I am. And feeling fat makes me want to do nothing. What's the difference between feeling fat and being fat? In my brain, not much. If I feel fat, that means the gym will be hard, arduous work. If I feel fat that means I won't feel good in my clothes.
Alright, alright, I'm going on a bit of a tangent here, but my point remains. I need to focus on the positive self I am creating. I need to envision my fit self, my best self. And I need to believe it again, that it is possible. You know, writing this has really helped. I wasn't feeling all that motivated to go to the gym but now I want to get up and change and go. Miguel's out playing soccer so I'm going to get in my gym clothes and wear them until he gets back. The ol' gym clothes trick works for me most of the time.
Regarding this past weekend...
Walking in the 4th of July Parade. Marek is sleeping through the festivities while Liam (Katrina's son) is rocking the red, white and blue!
And below, ladies and gentleman, is what a 45 minute Funnel Cake line looks like. And yes, I did wait in that line.
And here is Miguel and Marek at the fair with a big "live" tree. There was a man in there. I shoulda taken video.
By the way, do you notice anything in that picture above? I didn't until I went to crop it. I think the universe is trying to tell me something...
November 1st? Let's see, that's a little less than 4 months away. This is the same triathlon I relayed while pregnant. How cool would it be to do it myself this time? Well, I have already committed to doing the third Tri-for-Fun on August 15th. Notice how I slipped this little bit of info in? I think I'm in a bit of denial since I haven't actually signed up for it. But I made plans to do it with some friends. That's the same tri I did last year. Twice. The second time I did it with these same friends. What a cool annual tradition for the four of us! Anyway, I'm on for the sprint on 8/15...we'll see about the oly on 11/1.
So, I'll close with a picture of my two favorite guys at the fair.
Marek is asleep, again. In this case it was probably for the best, those loud mooooos might have given him a scare.
Time to wrap this thing up. Thank you for stopping by!